This one is a hard one to write. I really wish there was a better reason I was writing to you, but I don’t know how else to cope. When I have a emotion that is too much for me to comprehend I just write it out. I guess that’s what I am doing here.
I want you to know that you’ve taught me the best lessons about life. Because of you, I’ve learned how to see life in a new light. In your life you fell in love young, had kids young, killed it in the bowling alley, visited Disney what seemed like every other year, mastered polish recipes, oh all the things you did. Yet, not once did you seem to regret a thing in life. kind of like papa. I admire that so much about you. I learned to loosen up and not be so serious. Heck you were in your 70’s sliding down slides, busting out moves on the dance floor, and always smiling. oh how I loved that smile.
But the greatest lesson you taught me was about love. I have never known someone with a heart like yours. I mean you had 8 kids and 30 plus grand babies and yet we all felt loved the same amount. There was so much love to go around. Because of you I’ve found myself learning to love more fearlessly. Usually the lessons I have learned from people are direct. But somehow with you I was able to just learn from watching you be you. Just the way you would light up a room. You could make anyone’s bad day good. Your ability to make people feel at home. I’d never leave on an empty stomach, let alone empty handed. You were home.
In the past few years I started really wanting to hug you a little longer. Wanting to sit down to listen to you talk, and not rush it. To learn all about you. I am so thankful for the time I have had with you.
I’ll love you forever gram,